p/s: i'm still very lost now

sometimes i don't know who i am anymore just like today i don't know what to write anymore. i used to be so lost that i wrote every day to remind myself of something. now, i stop. i thought maybe this way i could have forgotten something that i wanted to forget so desperately. but only then i realized, it's a 01 switch of the light in my mind. i just chose the 0 for a while and when you press it slightly it will turn 1. then, i will clearly see the stuffs that i've put aside for a long long time come into sight. i don't really want to see it but it's there all the time. i literally blind folded myself.

look at the mess i've done above. can you read what i'm trying to convey? do you? because i don't myself. and so, i chose to stop writing for a while from now on and wait for the day i step up my new life. when that day comes i will start to write again and tell you guys the updates.

p/s: i'm still very lost now.

omg.. i started to feel bored.. sigh..

我最憎人地打烂沙盆问到足！

I wanna be an early bird~ lalala

hahaha.. i just woke up :)

i slept really early yesterday (11pm)

hehe... i hope that tonight will be the same again..

you know what? the feeling of getting to sleep early

and wake up early.. is so great...

it has been so long that i never felt this way..

i wanna be an early bird~ lalala

what should i do?

Orz

我讨厌被拒绝的感觉

但我更加讨厌你接受了

却在背后默默的埋怨

这样子更加会令我难受

令我愧疚 为什么要这样子？

如果真的不行 当初就说不行啊！

我不会有怨的 我一样好好的过

现在会比较好吗？

我不觉得如此 反而

一份愧疚感正在天天夜夜

的烦扰着我。。无奈。。

Again

gosh. can't believe another day has just gone like that..

it's not unusual that it was a sleepless night for me again..

i wonder how am i going to survive long in that way. sigh.

i'm not going to sleepless every night.

i need to do something to change my routine..

but how? what can i do to make me sleep on time like before 12

and without waking up at 2 or 3?

i tried to sleepless for a day and the next day i was so tired.

and then at night i slept around 12.. but the thing is.. this

only last for one day.. and then the sleepless thingy comes back the next day

AGAIN!.. is this a sickness or what.. i really really can't get into sleep early..

am i thinking too much or what.. mentally? but how to stop that?

i have a strong determination to stop it but still can't..

what happens to me? sigh.. all i want is sleep early.

is that too much to ask for? why me?

dislike

dislike means dislike..

i dislike people touch my thing means

i dislike people touch my thing..

so don't touch my things especially my

phone and computer.. unless you are

PERMITTED! or my parents, my boyfriend or my closest buddies

otherwise just back off!

people need privacy..

My VVVVV............IP

I love my mummy and papa :)
Believe it or not they are just out to work and I miss them already.
Mum, Papa thank you so much.
I know even the whole world ban me and fail me, you two will still be my biggest fans.
No one will ever love like you both do. And so do I :)
Always love you two.
My beloved parents.

i miss home already..