Sigh.. Did something stupid.. again.. =.=

A Sad Love Story

Today I watched sorta like documentary tv show telling the story of a special couple. How special? To be honest, I didn't find it any special but other might describe it as odd and for me to be respect and nice, special is the best word I could ever think of. This is the sorta thing that makes people talk about. I found this story not odd but in a way it is very touching and sentimental.

The story began with a young lady at the age of 21 married an old man at the age of 60 seventeen years ago. They have trust in each other and loved each other. They cross the barrier of the objections of family and friends. Sacrificing for each other but all these end up with a mark. A mark of aging.

Dear old man is getting older and older, 17 years later, now he's 77. Then he realized he can't let the one he loves suffer anymore. He wanted the best for his wife at the age of 38 though it's too late but as long as we realized it's never too late, isn't it? The best thing he realized he has to give to his dear wife is freedom. Locking her by his side doesn't do any good to her. She's still young, at least younger than her. The right way to love her is to prepare a better future for her. And the only thing to give her freedom is to force her leave him.

Then he wanted a divorce. With a broken heart, she never gives up of her marriage till the very last minute, dear old man said something that totally break her heart and she left. He did all sorta annoying things to make her hate him. They finally divorced. Dear old man succeed with his plan. But they both will never know what each other thinking. Dear old man still love her so much, it's been 17 years. And dear young lady still love him so much, it's not sympathy for an old man. It's love, and it's been 17 years. She had given up all her youth and time for him to exchange a broken heart and resentment. The question of whether she regret or not comes without an answer.

Hope that she'll appreciate what dear old man had done for her.

♥Papa and Mama♥

Yay! iPhone:)

Hehe..

Thanks papa and mama..

I love papa and mama♥

Wanted: Grandpa

Second day of CNY.

Went back to my ancestor house.. LOL..

And viewed a lot of old photographs, those black and white.

And I saw my young father, young grandpa and young grandma.

When I saw my young grandpa, all of sudden I feel like crying..

I miss my grandpa..

I feel the house is just so quiet compared to last time.

Sigh.

♥ Him forever

Jean Paul is officially one year old..

♥ him forever..

Wanted: A new frame ♥

Hehe*Love this pix

Wanted: Distraction

So, what?

6.55 pm, first day of CNY

and.. Heartaching day..

What now?

Crowd didn't blind my mind

Noise didn't distract me..

Wanted: Heartache Med

How come my heart is aching?

Now, at 10.48 pm on 13th of February 2010

going to turn 14th of February 2010 in 1 hour and 12 minutes,

my heart is aching.

I don't know why.

Wishes

Happy Chinese New Year to every one..

Wishing you all a very good year..

Wanted: iPhone

I want iPhone >.<

Papa said buy for me :) but when? Grrhh...

I want iPhone!! >.<

Wanted: Time!

Yeah.. Maybe it's just weird but this is going to end soon.

Till the day it ends everything is not going to be the same anymore.

So for now, I just want to do what I wanted to.

God, please give me more time.

I will appreciate it.. Please..

I never loved You as much as You love me.

If You love me then give me more time.

Closing with her..

It's been really a while since I work closing.. Still remember how I used to work closing every night crazily until my mum and friends complained to me. First, mum said it's dangerous to go home late as a girl which I think the same but I can't care much because I need to work.. Second, my friends complained that they can't go out with me sometimes because I got class at the day time and working at the night.

The reason why I don't work much this 2-3 months is because I realized I've turned into a total workaholic which I'm not supposed to as I'm a full-time student who supposed to focus more on my studies for the very final year.. and I flunked for the previous previous semester.. It's not that I can't cope, it's because when I focus on somewhere else, I'm too tired to focus on here anymore.

People thinks that I'm not considerate enough in my job but when I did, who else notice the goods I've done so far? They only remember the bads that I've done. Not trying to say that I need people to appreciate things that I've done but please 'inconsiderate' is not supposed to be out from anyone's mouth when they don't know me at all. So, I don't care when people said that, I'm just a little pissed off.

So, back to today's closing.. with KAY!! HAHAHAHA.. I don't remember when was the last time we did closing together. Love the most working with her because she's the only partner that I knew the longest!! LONGEST!! everyone else ciao.. We are the only two originally from #105 left in the store.. We knew every inch of the store.. but things changed drastically when the partners all turnover. Love working with Kay Renn because she knows who I am and I know who she is.. I know what's going to happen when I work with her. We understand each other while we work together.. I know what she needs and she knows what I need. I know why when she doesn't talk and she knows why when I don't. I know one thing.. Haha.. She cannot multi-task! Kay Renn will say: Shut up!.. Muahaha.. We can have a lot of topics to chat and when we don't talk we don't find it weird. It's comforting to be silent with her because we both knew it's not weird to be silent.

But now, it's not that I'm not friendly enough to be closed with my new partners.. But I just don't get used to that large amount of new partners in.. So, no matter how, I can't be very closed with them like Kay and I. But I'm happy to meet the new partners at the same time..

And ya.. Today the bar is mine! Hahaha!!! all mine!! and Kay's cafe!! Hahaha.. Just nice..! :)

It's not the beginning..

This is not the beginning of everything, it's just a slot of everything..

How am I going to begin with this slot? Hmm.. *Thinking*

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Ah-Huh!

My name is Yoke Shan (as if no one knows-Haha), well, I took the initiative to start this new blog to let my friends know some recent updates of me since my private blog is totally locked from the world which only certain closed and trusted friends can access. So here I am with the new one which everyone get to read what I actually mourn and complain about life and everything. Haha.. Who doesn't?

Everybody has different view of perspective of life, so we can't compliment with each others most of the time and if you found one that can you wouldn't want to let it off you and you are lucky enough to enjoy the splendid gift from God. I'm not a strong believer but I do respect God's creation and I thank God for giving me so many gift of life. The point is.. what I mention here may be different from what you expect or may be contradict with your point of view, so, please don't feel offended if I do say something wrong or something that you feel offended in any ways. After all, putting the right words in the right place for the right person could be hard in the time being.

Me? Owh.. I have many complaints about life *LOL*. Living up to almost 22 years made me absorb many lessons from rising and falling, experiences of good and bad which combined to be a life of us. I knew this process of life will not end till I die. I'm still learning every day of life and am trying to cope with it as best as I could.

You? Owh.. You might find this blog boring to read about.. But after all, who cares if I make you bored? It's for you to read but it might not be for you to acknowledge what is up to me. But I hope you will enjoy it after all :)

I also want to take this opportunity to thank all my friends who never leave me during my downfall of life and share their happy moments with me. And also thank to those who listens to me every time when I need a best listener. For those who stop listening and stop following, I never blame, we are just not compliment to each other as I mentioned earlier. But I still thank them for used to being with me.

Last but not least, I would like to thank my lovely parents who unconditionally giving me supports since I was born and still support me no matter what I did wrong. They give me the best of my life. I love them so much. Thank God for this splendid gift of all You had given. Last for someone so important? But I always save the best for last. Do you remember what I mention on my first paragraph? Now, do you see why I put the best for last? :)