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恋爱

太久没有恋爱了
我已经忘记恋爱到底是怎么样的感觉了
我单身4年了
这些年都有过很多喜欢的人
但是一直没有勇气去追求
思想保守的我总觉得应该是男人追女人
最近也有但是我压制自己不要太在意
因为已经知道对方不可能喜欢自己的
所以目前为止都保持心平气和的假状态
有时候也会想如果真的一辈子一个人
那我该怎么办呢
虽然嘴里每天挂着我不想谈恋爱我不要结婚
心里却为自己担心
那现在我该怎么办？

我可能会害到他电话部分数据消失掉真的抱歉我真的不知道会这样 不懂还装懂 我真笨! 该死的我!

Why me?

Why me? Why must I be alone again and again and again.. just when I thought I have some little hope and the little hope was gone within 1 day.. I just wanna love and be loved.... why me again? Why treat me like this? Want me to be empty forever huh? How long must I endure this loneliness?  It's been 4 years....! Enough!!

职场如战场

老板始终是老板外面看起来有多仁慈，门面功夫做得有多好终究会露出狐狸尾巴。要发飙的时候

所以说在职场上最好不要轻易相信人不然突然被捅一刀都不知道发生什么事情到时连自救的机会都没有了。

以前都不觉得职场如战场，现在慢慢开始可以领会到了。尤其是直属上司是大老板，真的不好做。。。

Escape From Camp 14 by Blaine Harden

This is a story of a man who have truly had a will of freedom more than anyone else in the world.

Shin was born in a slave labor camp located in North Korea known as Kaechon Internment Camp a.k.a. Camp 14. This camp acts as a prison for political prisoners usually will be caught along with family members i.e. wife, kids, parents, and siblings. The imprisonment in Camp 14 is a life sentence which means one has to work until they die in the prison and no chance of release.

He was born to an arranged marriage of two prisoners as a reward of doing good deed in the camp and were allowed to sleep together few times in a year. He seldom saw his father as he's place in another area of the camp to work and he had no affection to his mother. Shin saw everyone in the camp as a food competitor due to the insufficiency of food supplies included his mother.

At the age of 14, Shin betrayed his mother and brother who planned to escape the camp in order to get more reward from the guards. As a result caused the execution of his mother and brother. In return, Shin didn't get any reward but punishment as his father and he were suspected to be involved in the escape plan. He was tortured by the guards in order to extract more information about the escape plan. At the underground cell, he met a guy who was being named by Shin as uncle. It was uncle who let Shin knew about love and care. If it was not uncle, Shin would have been dead in the cell.

On the day he was released, he was brought to witness his mother and brother's execution but he ever felt guilty at that moment as he truly believed that they deserved to die because of their silly plan resulted him to being tortured. But it took years for him to feel the guilt and haunt him for life.

Part of Shin's middle finger were cut off by his supervisor as a punishment for accidentally breaking a sewing machine. While he was working in the textile factory, he befriend a middle age man named Park. Park often told Shin about how good was the world outside the electrical fence. Park also told him about China, South Korea and food that he had never experienced before. All he had for food in the camp was soupy gruel of cabbage, corn and salt, sometimes rats and insects he caught around the came.

The desire of freedom and food as much as he wanted at the outside world made Shin decided to attempt an escape together with Park. On January 2, 2005, Shin and Park finally made their attempt to escape when they were assigned a task near the fence. Park attempted to go through the fence first but failed, as a result was electrocuted by the high voltage fence. Shin managed to pass through the fence with the shield of Park's body but his legs were injured by the fence.

Shin was able to bribe North Korean border guards with food and cigarettes to enter China. After he spent some time as a laborer in different parts of China, Shin was accidentally discovered by a journalist who brought Shin to the South Korean embassy for asylum, and from there Shin finally able to travelled to South Korea. In South Korea, he underwent extensive questioning from authorities to determine if he was a Noth Korean assassin or spy. Afterwards, Shin's story was broadcast by the press and he published a Korean language memoir. He later moved to southern California in the United States and worked for Liberty in North Korea (LiNK), a non-profit organization that raises awareness of human rights issues in North Korea and provides aid to North Korean refugees. Shin then moved back to South Korea, where he campaigns for the eradication of the North Korean prison camps.

This is the first non-fiction book I have ever finished so far.. After I finished this book, it made me realized even more of the importance of life. We should be appreciate of every single thing we have in life.

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monday blues

hi guys~ it's monday again.. if i got the chance to own a company somehow i will think of a way to kill my staff's monday blues.. lol.. hmm.. ya.. it blues as usual.

this morning wasn't a good day, public transport sucked this morning.. sigh. the only thing i resented coming to work this far is public transport..waiting for it and stuck in the crowd.. i hate crowd.. but every point i stop to wait for my train is indeed very crowded.

我觉得我自己最近越来越懒散了..好像越来越讨厌工作..天啊我还要做多少年才会得到真正的休息时间..人就是这样有事没事都在埋怨生活 :(